On the 364th night, the night before the last day, I had another dream.
I was getting ready to enter heaven. There was a man looking at a list checking to see if I was on it. As he is looking at the list, I am looking ahead. On a hill I see a man whose skin is of gold! I know he is not Jesus, but I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. It was almost as if the gold on him was emitting light. The man with the list saw me notice the man and told me that the man had the Love of Christ in him and he was saved by God. Both of those together made him radiate.
I then looked down at my arm, and all I saw was the pale skin I have always had. My heart sank. With a low, quiet voice I asked the man with the list, “Did the Lord save me?”
The man replied, “He did save you, but I am checking to see if the Love of Christ was in you too.”
I was hurt by this. I said, “Of course the Love of Christ was in me!”
“Then why did you not pass it on to others?” said the man. “You say you had the Love of Christ, but to show this, you had to spread it! Why keep it for yourself? You pointlessly worried what others would think of you. You were afraid. Someone with the Love of Christ in them knows that it doesn’t matter what others think, but instead, what God thinks! They also know that the Love of Christ is to be shared, not to be kept to themself!”
My heart sank even further while the man continued to look for evidence of the love of Christ in me. I had no reply. I had no reason. I kept thinking of all the missed opportunities I had where I should have spoken up and let others know of the love Christ has for us! All I could do then was quietly ask, “Was anyone touched by the Lord through me?”
There was a pause by the man with the list. Then a smile began to slowly form. He spoke just one word more…”Yes.”
Immediately, I looked back at my arm. My pale skin started changing to the purest gold I have ever seen! It was now changing everywhere and I started to shine just like the man I saw before. A warmth came over me along with a joy. It felt as though the Lord had just wrapped His arms around me. I knew then that I had fulfilled what He had for me to accomplish before I went to heaven and words could not express how good that felt.
Then I woke up.
For the past 365 days, I have been trying to close the door with the serpent behind it and run to the door on the other side of the house that led to Christ. I believe that the dream I had last night was God telling me that I have successfully closed the door on the left and I am on my way to heaven through the door on the right.
On my way to the door on the right, I will remember what I have learned in the past 365 days. I will continue to chase after Him. I will remember that the only logical thing to do is to trust Him. I will rest in the knowledge that I am loved with a love that cannot be measured. I will rest in the knowledge that the Lord of the entire universe, who is capable of doing far more than I could ever ask or imagine, is my God and loves me! I know He will take care of me always and never leave me. I will run to Him.
I feel I am writing of this final dream, no longer as a boy in my faith, but instead as a man. However, as I said in Day 352, my goal is constant practice in the word, prayer and all righteousness. I am just getting started! I am looking forward to what the Lord still has in store for me and I rest in the fact that He will be with me in all things.
